| Supernatural |
[Feb. 5th, 2009|08:47 pm] |
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YAY! Sam took off his shirt! |
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| Supernatural |
[Feb. 5th, 2009|08:24 pm] |
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I love Bobby on Supernatural! |
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| Confusion running amuck |
[Feb. 2nd, 2009|08:45 pm] |
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I have no freaking idea what is going on in Heroes. I feel like I've missed a complete season or something. I must go download the last episode to see if it makes more sense.
GRRRRR |
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| Out of Practice |
[Jan. 31st, 2009|11:38 am] |
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Okay. I really suck at this check book balancing thing. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. It stresses me out to no end. I keep telling myself I'll get better at it. That it's just the fact that Thane did all that stuff for 11 years or so. I can do it. I can.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR |
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| Odd family conversations |
[Jan. 26th, 2009|04:41 pm] |
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I was talking to my brother Jose and he wants me to send him a copy of my resume. He thinks I would do really well working at one of the big hotels in Las Vegas. He was kind of vague about the exact details but very insistant. WTH? I'll send it. I told him I needed benefits and retirement benefits. I'm not sure what he pictures me doing. Maybe I don't want to know. Oooooooeeeeeeeee.
I'm stressed. I threw out my back today. Doing absolutely nothing. Just sitting there stressing. I can barely move my neck. I blame Thane for telling me he was going to have to get rid of all the dogs. I didn't sleep at all last night. It was two A.M. and I was watching episodes of Merlin. (which is great by the way) Pain killers. Hot tub. Bed. Maybe a great epiphany will come to me on how I can save my dogs, save the house, save myself and keep the kittens.
KITTENS!!!!
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| Butterflies |
[Jan. 20th, 2009|07:53 pm] |
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I've got butterflies and they're not the good kind. I could curl up in a ball right now and just whimper. What's made me such a mess? I don't know. Maybe it was writing out the bills. Sometimes I think it would be better to just mentally snap. Lock me up in a padded room, drug me up and just leave me there. I just want to get to the point where this life is over without having to deal with the daily shit. I want to be oblivious of everything. I hate waking up every morning. I hate having to get through each day. It's pure torture. I have stupid anxiety attacks over nothing. I can't stand myself.
Sorry about the venting. |
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| YAY! YAY! |
[Jan. 20th, 2009|02:23 pm] |
I know he never reads this but:
HAPPY BIRTHDAY ![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif) zer0_nine !!!!! |
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| I'm such a Proud Mama |
[Jan. 6th, 2009|04:47 pm] |
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It's my turn to brag about my babies! I've had the Kitty whiz toilet training thingie on the toilet for a few days now and today I came home to find someone has used it! YAY! It's the beginning! I don't know which one did it but YAY! Soon I will begin to cut the hole in the middle and then no more litter box! *does the dance of joy*
Toilet trained cats! Yay!
Plus this LJ thingie has me in a tizzy! What will happen to all my FANFIC?!?!?!
My Facebook profile is under Silvia Salinas should we all disappear from here. |
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| Welcome 2009 |
[Jan. 1st, 2009|11:10 pm] |
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I hope you are kinder to me than 2008 was.
I hope I snap out of this stupid funk
I want to be happy again. |
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| I fly! |
[Dec. 23rd, 2008|11:16 pm] |
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In the plane that is! To Chicago I go! |
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| Today's roll of the dice |
[Dec. 23rd, 2008|06:29 am] |
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Brings a job opening in Philly. I shall fill it out tonight. The nice thing about Philly is that it's an hour train ride from NY so I would be able to see my family often. Of course, it's an hour away from NY so I can avoid them if I want!
I know I'll get nothing done at work today. I'm too excited about flying out tomorrow. |
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| Onward March! |
[Dec. 22nd, 2008|04:56 pm] |
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I got a letter from the Feds today that my score was not high enough but to keep applying. No Denver for me at this time. I feel that I should be more upset but I feel a lot less stressed. One less thing to angst about. Now I shall tackle the lease! I can do eeeet! |
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| Pre-Flight Nerves |
[Dec. 21st, 2008|12:38 pm] |
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I always get extremely nervous before a trip. I calm down once I'm in the air but the days before my trips I lose it. I'm not even sure what it is. I'm not afraid of flying. It's the actual going away and leaving my world that freaks me. I'm so stressed about the kittens right now I might hurl. They've become the one thing in my world that keep me grounded and sane. If I'm worrying about them I'm not worrying about my divorce and how my parents will react to it. I'm not alone with the kittens. I am so going to become the Cat Lady. *sigh*
I downloaded Season 2 of Dr. Who last night. Yay.
I need to find something I can read on the plane. I'm downloading new music to listen to on the plane. I love my MP3 Player. It is a magical thing.
We finally got an e-mail from SSA saying the Social Security Continuing resolution should be passed in January. After that there will be job openings in all 10 DQB offices. Did I mention I'm restless? So restless. If don't get this Denver job I applied for it's okay. There will be tons of new jobs available - In Philly, in San Francisco, Chicago, Dallas, Atlanta etc. I'm just terrified of making any choices in my life. I have anxiety right now because I got a letter to renew my lease. Do I commit for another six months? My fucking life is just passing me by. |
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| Hmmmmm |
[Dec. 18th, 2008|09:35 pm] |
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There's a job opening in Kansas City. What the Heck is in Kansas City??? |
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| *sigh* |
[Dec. 17th, 2008|11:12 pm] |
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I'm never going to have a movie kind of love. |
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| Guilt and such |
[Dec. 17th, 2008|08:27 pm] |
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I played hooky from work today. I felt guilty ALL day. Thankfully I had a shrink appointment at 3:00 today. I avoided work today because the Office Christmas party was today. They're really enforcing the "TEAM SPIRIT" thing this year and I would have had to gone into the day room. I just didn't feel able to. But then I felt guilty for not going to work. My shrink said that the important thing was that I knew what I needed to do to take care of myself. I shouldn't feel guilty. Yet I can't shake the guilt. It's the same thing with this divorce thing. I feel guilty. I feel it's all my fault. If I had somehow figured out how to be the perfect wife than we'd still be together. My shrink thinks I should do the divorce paperwork as soon as possible. He doesn't think I'll be able to move on until I get that paperwork. He told me to date people. I don't even LIKE people right now. I can't date people. I'm Married. *sigh* He gave me a lot to think about. I just don't want to think about it. He did say I've progressed because he said that a year ago I would have shut him down hard if he tried to talk to him about this subject. I don't feel like I've progressed but whatever.
I hate being alone. I do. |
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| I'm going insane! |
[Dec. 15th, 2008|09:17 pm] |
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I was half-assedly watching Heroes while playing Scrabble when I heard HIS voice. I know it was his. That was Michael Dorn! I know it was! My internet is running super slow right now, I don't know if it's the weather or what. But Damn. I can't find anything that says who it was. AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH
I LOVE MICHAEL DORN.
*Hyperventilates* |
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| Let's do this thing! |
[Dec. 14th, 2008|02:18 pm] |
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I've downloaded Season's 3 and 4 of Stargate Atlantis with my bit torrent thingie! I shall now settle in for a nice long marathon. I desperately need to catch up to see what the heck is going on in Fan Fiction world.
I bought bacon. Lots of bacon. *does the Bacon dance of joy*
Radar is now christened "RADAR, DESTROYER OF ALL STRAWS BE THEY CLEAR OR COLORED"
Noodles just watches Radar destory the straws with a look of extreme boredom on his regal, little face.
I still refuse to decorate my door at work. They can't make me. They can't bribe me. I won't do it. |
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depressed